Happy Un-Mother's Day

I honestly have to say that Mother's Day is by far the hardest day of the year for me. Every year, it is a reminder of what I still do not have in my life. I always hope that the next year will be different, but so far that just hasn't happened for us. At this point, I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I always feel so good about things at the beginning of a treatment cycle, but by the end, I am an emotional wreck and not even sure that I can handle all of this anymore. Everyone keeps telling me to hang in there, it will happen, I will be a great Mom, but the more time that passes, the more I begin to think that maybe I'm not meant to be someone's Mommy.